Living with Intention

When I first started my blog, in November of last year. I really intended to write weekly, and well, here I am, 6 months later (🤯) and FINALLY writing again. These last few months have been hard, real hard. But I have decided, I MUST start living with intention right now!

Maybe it’s like a vision board!? Living with intention. If you have, and visualize the desires on a regular basis – you fabricate them. So much has happened in our lives lately, we made a big move from Fort Mcmurray to Calgary. I started a new job here, and in a turn of events, (super unconventional) I am the main breadwinner. My husband is at home with the kids! We are landlords now. One of my husbands parents had a heart attack on Christmas Day (before we moved), one of my parents had a stroke just after we moved. Our 12 year old dog was hospitalized for diabetic keto acidosis, guess she is diabetic now!. And since she has had ongoing health problems. As of two weeks ago, basically the vet told us to put her down, that she wouldn’t live two weeks. She is still here with us, and happy as an old, blind, diabetic dog can be! It’s been A LOT, like I said. And if you have ever moved houses or cities, it is a lot of work!!! Especially with two kids unpacking the boxes you just packed! I think I packed for weeks and weeks ha ha.

There has been so so many changes lately, and I have been struggling. To be honest, working full time, coming home to two small kids who still very much need their mom, PLUS helping care for a sick family member and dealing with all the unknowns there – I feel burnt out. And that probably isn’t even fair to say. I am training in a new position, so I’m always in hyperdrive at work to do well. Always preparing, and anxious. I’m in a learners role. All leading me to being very exhausted and over drawn. Some of my personal relationships are impacted. And my family is too, I feel. I miss my time with my littles. Thank goodness I have an amazing husband.

I find on my first day off, of usually my two days off… I’m so exhausted I can never get anything done and I’m usually grumpy. Even in the evenings, as well. I’m so tired, as soon as the kids are in bed and my head hits the pillow, I too am down for the count. It SUCKS. I don’t have me time, or time with my husband, ugh. So I saw someone posted something on IG, about living with intentions to be happy or to be present, etc. And it made me think about doing that myself.

A few months ago, or actually, ever since having children. I could never let myself get comfortable, or have a relaxing drink, or a bath, in case baby woke up or someone needed something. Or knowing there would soon be someone yelling “mom mommy” but a few months ago, I decided even if it was 5 minutes, I was going to put my feet up and relax. And now that is exactly what I do. Because heck, sometimes it’s more then the few minutes I thought it would be, and sometimes it’s exactly what I need. May as well take some moments for myself. This change has turned our wonderfully.

So now, I am going to live with intentions. Specifically right now, intentions to be happy. I am going to purposefully ignore things that may frustrate me, or worry me. And just be happy. That will be my focus, for now. I don’t want to give myself more then I can handle. And I think that’s fair ❤️

Do you live with intention? What are your intentions?

Xoxo my friends! Has anyone told you today how important you are!? You need your cup to be full, before you can fill anyone else’s.